back to school

Today I had my first day back to school after Spring Break. Wow... what a change to dive right back into a unit of lectures that we started - what seems like - forever ago. I sat in class surrounded by my classmates who's names I know, but personally have never actually met. I spend so much time in this classroom, but not with the people. Many seem so consumed in themselves and their lives outside of class. 

I long to know people and make friends in this stage of my life. I feel stuck without the surroundings of Christian supporters and friends. After spending time at the Honor Academy and living with wonderful Christian women, I realize how much I may have taken that for granted. In this season of my life I do not have to opportunity to be completely surrounded by friends who have the VERY same love that I do. It breaks my heart sometimes and I wonder why I am here right now. My purpose and future seems so unclear. My life is consumed by school work and hours spent working at my part time job. But today as I observed the environment I am in... I realized that even if everything else is foggy - I can be a light. I don't have to conform to the life of my classmates in order to "fit in" or have someone to hang out with. How important is that? Maybe here an now it is nice to have the company? But is it good company? and how will it effect my life? I am reminded of a verse in 1 Corinthians that says, Do not be misled: “Bad company corrupts good character.” 

I long to find my identity in Christ day after day. And right now, it is something that I need to be diligent about and constantly think of. I don't know how many days I have ahead of me. I can't plan to do something about it tomorrow when today may be the only day that counts. Do something different today. Stop and talk to someone you don't know. Help someone who is struggling to put their groceries in the car. Even the small things that seem to be nothing make a HUGE difference!