great and mighty

Recently I have been very stressed and overwhelmed with school... actually, that is a lie, it is not a recent thing, but an everyday occurrence.   I am down to the last 2ish weeks of the semester, and there is a chance I may not pass. I need to have a theory test average of 78% with other factors bringing it up to an 80%. Currently I am sitting on a 75 or 76% average, so it is not impossible to raise my grade, but I have figured I need to receive 85.5% average on the next 3 tests - one of which is today. 200 note cards and 6 pages of medications later I still feel as if I know nothing. How frustrating!! "God, I just want to make it through this semester. I have worked so hard and do not want to feel like more of a failure. Please give me the strength to endure!" 

I am brought to tears trying to study these days because I feel as if nothing will pay off; hours of work will all be in vain. I know that I should not feel this way, it is not of the Lord! But I am in such a vulnerable state right now and it takes all the strength I have to get through the day not feeling like a complete failure. 

I find myself listening to worship music a lot, especially on my 30 min drive to school and the same on the way home. It brings some peace and the feeling as if I am escaping for a mere half hour, when in reality I am on my way to the most dreaded thing these days. A couple of my favorites are "Mighty to Save" by Laura Story, "One Thing Remains" by Jesus Culture, and "Holy" by Matt Gilman & Cory Asbury.  They speak truth into my life! Music has always done this for me more powerfully than anything else. I sing along and start to believe the lyrics...

"Your love never fails

It never gives up

It never runs out on me"

"Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of Salvation
He rose & conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave"

"Only one word comes to mind

There’s only one word to describe

Holy, holy, Lord God Almighty
There is no one like You

You are holy, holy"

If my God is big enough and strong enough to save the world, then He is definitely big enough to give me the strength to make it through the semester. And He is even able to give me the ability to pass my classes. This may seem so cliche, but it is the truth. I don't think I could EVER make it this far without Him!